The other day, over a Skype conversation, Amar and I were discussing about the direction and predicting this upcoming movie, “Gangs of Wasseypur”. I realize that, after going through the trailer of the movie several times, Amar is finely stuck to only one point, which as per him describes his situation very aptly …”हमरी जिन्दगी का एक्के मक्सद है… बदला” ! Lets learn the deeper aspects of this dialogue, and how do they apply to this whole Amar-Dolly series of affairs. As far as I know Amar, a serious incident never happened into his life, until the affair with Dolly. He had had past crushes, relationships, etc, but all just to describe that he was normal. He was never too much involved into any of them, since he already knew his fate. In the worst scenarios of life, as bad as dropping a complete year to comply with what parents believed, or loosing his best friend over an accident, he had the tendency of “let-go”. To be honest, I never imagined that I would see in him such burning rage one day in life.
Dolly and her family is far more fortunate, that they were never exposed to the full fledged rage quotient of Amar. I ‘ve come across people who in acrimony and acute ire, just walk into the whole scene without thinking, just to realize later that they could have taken precaution or should have refrained from doing whatever they did. However, Amar approached this whole “बदला” project with proper plan. I was amazed to see how he jotted down and organized the points where he was supposed to hit ‘em one to one. I at once tried to convince him, to “let-go” of all this, like every time, and then he uttered out of pure grief – ” तुम नहीं समझोगे, I pray this never happens to you.“. The way he mumbled those words, with heavy throat, compelled me to think once again, and when I went over the series of events, I could feel the pain. Poor soul was, used and thrown, all for fiscal rationale, if someone could just care about the person he was, and at least not ridiculed him to an extent of this, he could have claimed his share of peace. Nonetheless, those points are not worth discussing, which couldn’t happen.
So, what could happen and did happen was The Revenge Project. From the day, Amar seeded the idea of creating the mailer algorithm and the email discovery protocol, wonders have happened. I remember, there were scenes, when things couldn’t work out, like the one where we could only attain bloody 16 email ids, after scanning all linkedin contacts, everyone just gave up, and to the dice of engagement, the freaking crazy guy did not sleep for nights, tp actually come up with a methodology which could take him further.
Now, whenever I ring him up in Tokyo, or Seoul or Jakarta, the content of around 70 percent of his conversation revolves around what next he has in mind. I help him, but I don’t understand the lad for one reason, that I have inquired as well as to “Why still this Kolaveri di…?”. To which he would respond, “अगली बार कोइ लड्की ऐसा सोचे भी (किसी भी लड्के के साथ), तो उसकी रूह कान्प जाये.. (Dude, next time a girl even thinks of doing this to a boy, her soul should shiver )!” I asked him again, that how will you make sure of that, to which he narrated me a long lecture on e-marketing, which just bounced over my head. Being away from India, is a barrier in his goal, because he just can’t grab all the details and databases he needs to so easily.
I just pray to god he gets over the rage, as soon as possible and “let-go”, but what he is doing is also justified. I am happy to see the comments which come our posts, which actually prove partially that people are learning about concepts which we intend to publish. Why I say partially is, still a lot of learned brains think that this is wrong, however as one our readers said, “Right or wrong is just a fluid concept” !